tricksters_queen: A line from "Book of Endings" by Adam Pascal - a song of his I really enjoy (book of endings)
My mom's service was yesterday. I was exhausted by the time I finally got home, and it wasn't even all that late, but I wasn't sleepy. I stayed up and started reading a new book until around eleven or so, I think. Maybe later. My concept of time has always been poor, my current lack of enthusiasm has not helped things.

I am okay, I think. I was able to get up and read what I'd written down what I wanted to say about my mom. It was difficult, but I managed it. As terrible a reason as it was to get together, it was really good to see my family, too. I think I may be fully lacking the ability to fall into hysterics. I shed a few tears here and there, but I don't fall apart. I am noticeably lacking in my usual energy, but given even the slightest provocation, my general cheer surfaces. That's just as well, I guess. I've always found it difficult to stay unhappy for any length of time.

Anyway. I ended my last post with the information that I had good news I wasn't in the mood to share. I feel more like sharing it, now, so here goes: I got my job at Robbins' Diamonds back.

Crazy, seeing as I'd been laid off, right? I'm not going to go into the details online here, but it's a good thing. I'm happy to be back. And it gives me something to do, too, which is probably really good right now.
tricksters_queen: Waxing poetic about love and pain - of which I have much of the former and little of the latter.  ::shrugs:: (save me)
My mom passed away yesterday (Monday) at 3:17pm.

I am...curiously calm. It took a week for things to really sink in for me when my aunt Lil died last year, so I suspect that this is similar.

I do not recall what I posted on here about my mom, but she had cancer. Ironically, the cancer is not what killed her - she died because of respiratory failure. The hospital had done everything they could for her, so we brought her home with hospice care. It was peaceful and painless, and she had her family around her.

She was the strongest person I ever knew. Mom had an iron will, too. We almost lost her Saturday night, but she pulled through. We told her that my brother was driving up from FL, and she waited for him. He got to talk to her for a while. She wasn't responsive, but hearing still works in a comatose state. I kid you not, she only passed on about an hour after my brother said his goodbye (my dad and I had all ready done so). I know that she is in a better place now, and that she's with her brothers and sisters.

It has been a long couple of weeks, and a particularly long weekend. I am looking forward to some real rest, assuming that it comes. And my husband is awesome. I have good news, too, but I am really in no mood to share it - I'll post again soon. </3
tricksters_queen: (Default)
So I didn't make it through the first round to get onto X-Factor. I can't really say I'm all that surprised. There was a LOT of talent! A guy who was sitting next to me made it through the first round, though, so I hope he gets further, too! :)

I was...oddly calm and relaxed the whole day. I don't know if sleep deprivation had anything to do with it, though... lol. By the time I got home, well, this morning around 12:30 or so... I was up until about 1am today, so I'd been awake a total of about 40 hours. Kind of crazy. :p :)

It was long, and grueling, but fun. I had a good time, tired as I was. I did a little bit of drifting and dozing for maybe about 2 hours while I was there.

I'm so happy for the weekend, though, I'll say that! ::laughter:: My cousin will be here around 5:30 this afternoon, and I can't wait! I may need to take a nap, though... ::laughter::

Signing off...
tricksters_queen: (foxgloves)
It is so gray outside today! It's kind of getting me down - I have to walk home. Bleh.

I have house cleaning to get done, so I'll be leaving the bookstore shortly, to walk in the rain. ::laughter::

I'm waiting for a good number of movies to come out this year - Thor, Captain America: The First Avenger, X-Men: First Class and several others. It's the Marvel year. ::laughter:: Though there is also Green Lantern, which is DC. Next year should give us the final installment of the Batman trilogy, and the next Star Trek film, which I really am excited about. :) (It would appear that the entire cast will be returning for it, which makes me incredibly happy.)

I want tomorrow and Thursday to be done and over with - trying out for X-Factor is not stressing me out the way I was when I tried for America's Got Talent, as I now know what I'm getting into - but I can't wait for it to be done so that I can get on with things. :p

Besides, I'm really looking forward to the weekend. My cousin is coming to visit, I'm having a party, and we're going to go see A Midsummer Night's Dream on Sunday. Friday needs to be now! :)
tricksters_queen: (Oh Romeo!)
My oldest nephew.
You know, the one in the band (of which I have used the band icon!) Oh Romeo!.

Yeah, he's pretty awesome. ::laughter::

He was in the area for Thanksgiving, and I actually had the opportunity to hang out with him a bit over a couple of days, which was just fantastic! (Imagine, if you would, the Doctor's 9th incarnation on the last word there...)

I don't think he'll ever cease to amaze me. He's 24 and built like, gods, I don't even know what. He's cheerful, and chatty, and loves to laugh, he gives awesome hugs. He's working on a plan to "get his life together", and concentrating mostly on his music, but looking to go back to school for Business & Marketing. He's brilliant.

I need to plan a trip to Florida. I'm sure my brother might like to see me, too... ::laughter::


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